Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Bad Day

Not having a great day.

Housing situation is not looking good.

Stressed (and depressed) over surgery and its awful aftermath.

Financial worries are making me cry.

Chocolate isn't making it all go away.

Becky "Miss Sunshine" Smith is nowhere to be found.

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Love Being A Nonny said...

Sorry Becky. Some days are just like this. Go take a walk. Talk to the Father. He knows every hair on your head. He cares about the sparrows so you KNOW how much He cares for you. He has NOT forgotten you. I will stop and pray right now.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there. You've got a lot of people praying and rooting for you! :)

Gayle in AL

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Anonymous said...

Hang in there Becky - we are here for you (even those of us you have never met).

Heidi in ND

Theresa said...

Just wanted to say that I am so thankful for your honesty! We too moved for my husband's job and are going through many of the same things you are with housing and financial worries...it is so refreshing to hear that we are not alone. I have been reading your blog since Sarah's cancer returned and love all the pictures you post and your amazing writing. Thanks for opening your life to the world.

Anonymous said...

Sorry you are having a VERY sad, no good, rotten day! Your plate is very full so days like this are to be expected. Know that you have prayers from so many of us from near and far.

Please let us know what you need. It's hard being so far away from someone you know you would like to help.

Prayers and hugs!

Anonymous said...

Prayers for you! So much overload. Sit quietly with the Lord until you feel some peace. Then have a piece of chocolate.

Praying for you.
Sheila from St. Louis

Shannon said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

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Kilgore Kids said...

Praying for comfort from all your worries. It must feel like the weight of the world on your shoulders. Take it one day at the time...one minute at the time when necessary. You remain in our thougths.

SuperSuz said...

Prayers going up...virtual hugs coming at ya!


Lyndsay said...

I'm sorry Becky.
I'll say a prayer for your strength and peace.
I hope good news finds it's way to you soon.

Gail Puckett said...

I'm sorry Becky, prayers coming your way.

Anonymous said...

One step forward, 2 or 3 steps back. I have days/weeks like that. I hope you leap way forward soon! Keeping you in my prayers. Jill

Sarah said...

I'll be praying for your family. Hang in there <3

Lysa said...

I don't comment very often, but felt compelled to do so today. I find myself coming back to your blog for updates, hoping to read some good news. I am so sorry you are down today. Please know you are being prayed for. Something good and amazing is going to come from all this!
Lysa, in SC

Ann Martin said...

Better days are ahead, Becky. There is a song the Gaither Vocal Band sings called "Better Days" and I believe their new CD is entitled that. God is still able and prayers are still being said for the Smiths for all situations--health, housing, etc. Take care and know we love and support you. Feel the Father's loving arms around you each minute of the day. Wish we could be there but we are here for you in prayer.

Pam D said...

There are times when words fail me; times when I wish that I was in close enough proximity to just hold you and let you cry on my shoulder. I think I shall have to see if anyone makes a shoulder pillow that I could send you as a stand-in (and no, I am not being facetious). I won't list all that I know that is on your plate (and I'm sure there are things about which I have no idea); I just know that it must seem so overwhelming right now. And I suppose, when surrounded by so much, the best choice is simply to look up, because the other options will allow you to be crushed. While this will blow out your guestbook, I just love 2 Corinthians 4 and feel the need to post it in it's entirety here.... drink from His cup, Becky, and be filled...

Treasures in Jars of Clay
1 Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.
2 Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God.
3 And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing.
4 The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.
5 For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake.
6 For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.
7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.
8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;
9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.
11 For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body.
12 So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
13 It is written: "I believed; therefore I have spoken." With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak,
14 because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence.
15 All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Linda said...

Your words are always so uplifting it broke my heart this morning. I am praying for you in all situations. I have followed your sight for a long time. That is the first thing I do is check your page. I know how you feel we are going thru some rough times right now but just remember God Is In Control....that is the only words that get me through each day.

Linda from Florida just 10 miles from Lakeland....

MaryH said...

Becky, you poor dear. These emotions is not unexpected or unreasonable and completely understandable but so hard to get through. I agree with the first post here - talk to the Father, talk to your father, let yourself feel the emotions and shed the tears. That is required to get through everything. All I can offer are prayers. Things will resolve - it may be a little difficult along the way but hopefully we can help carry you. Praying.

tylersmama said...

I'm sorry you are having a bad day Becky. Everything will work out the way it is supposed to, although I know that is an easy thing to say and not an easy thing to believe. We are all praying!!

Anonymous said...

Better days are ahead. Just keep your eye on them. God loves you and so do I. Mary

Jessica Kramasz said...

{{HUGS}} Praying for you.

Carrie B said...

Double Hugs Becky, Hang in there.

F R O G ~ Fully Rely On God

Michelle said...

I wish you were having a GOOD day, but, since, obviously, you are not, I want to share a little bit of sunshine that makes my "bad" days a little better. When I happen to hear this song, it always puts a smile on my face. I hope the lyrics make you smile, too. :)

Song is "Three Little Birds", by Bob Marley ...

Don't worry a-bout a thing, 'cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right.
Singing': "Don't worry about a thing, 'cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin'; smiled with the risin' sun.
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true; saying,
"This is my message to you-ou-ou.”

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right."
Sayin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin'; smiled with the risin' sun.
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true; sayin',
"This is my message to you-ou-ou."

Meanin': "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing,
oh! Ev-ry little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
‘cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Meanin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause every little thing
gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
"Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing ‘sgonna be all right."

(Baby) Don’t worry about a thing,
'cause ev’ry little thing gonna be all right.

Anonymous said...

"I call you Savior, I call you Master, I call you God.

I call you Father, I call you Faithful, I call you everyting that I've got.

I call you Jesus, I call you Healer, I CALL YOU MERCY, I CALL YOU MINE.


You are the Lord who captures my heart." (Don't know the writer, but LOVE the song.)

Lord, please let Becky see you walk across the water to her storm-tossed boat and hear You speak calm and peace to her weary, over burdened heart and circumstances.

Love, Guerrina

Kim@Seasons of My Heart said...

Isaiah 43: 1-3
"But now, this is what the LORD says—he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
3 For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel."

Hang in there Becky...remember...you will walk THROUGH these situations. God will not ask you to reside there...but rather...continue on...walking...step by step...moment by moment.

I'm gripping the hem of his garment on your behalf my friend.


LizW said...

Becky, your plate is far too full of things no one should have to worry about! I know you hate to ask for help, but would your church be able to give you and Steve some kind of "bridge" loan that would allow you to buy the house you are in now? That would make it possible to sell your Smithfield house at a loss, but at least it would be over. I so wish I was a rich person who could step in and help. So many folks find themselves in trouble because they made bad decisions, but that is definitely not you! Pray, sleep, scream into your pillow, eat chocolate! My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

Cancer is more than enough to throw you for a loop, let alone the financial strain of the house situation. Know and be comforted that we are all holding you close and sending what comfort we can through cyberspace.


Anonymous said...

hi Becky, Hope you are feeling better as the day goes on. Enjoy your walk today with Steve. I think that the walking is better for you then chocolate. Well, better for your health, anyways :)
Pam T

Lisa said...

I'm trusting God for every aspect of your situation. It makes me sad to see you hurting like this. Just know that it's all going to come together in a way you probably can't even imagine.



Appreciate your honesty - it helps us all!

Anonymous said...

Hey Becky, do you have any favorite empowering, angry, "fighting" music (not necessarily religious)? I admit I like to sit quietly and be soothed by gentle crooning, but it also works wonders for my mood just to blast the radio when an "in your face" kind of song comes on. Some of my favorites might not be, um, appropriate for a pastor's wife, but maybe your readers have some suggestions.