After 8-hours of being on the road and going back and forth between doctor’s offices, we once again have good news and bad news.
I don’t need chemo.
I don’t need radiation.
I don’t need any long term medications.
Not So Good News:
Although the area that is cancerous is contained (in other words, it doesn’t appear to have spread outside the milk duct where it started) it turns out that it is quite a bit larger than they first thought, extending into a “second quadrant.” Since removing the entire cancerous area would be the equivalent of removing something the size of a man’s fist, the doctor said there would be very little tissue left over when he was done. And therefore a mastectomy on the left side is the only reasonable option.
I was going in there this morning with cheerful little thoughts that I would just opt for the lumpectomy/ radiation route if nothing unexpected showed up on the MRI. To say that Steve and I were a bit taken aback and a little emotional would be an understatement.
After talking with the surgeon/oncologist for a while, and then going and spending some time with the plastic surgeon, I have decided to go ahead and have a double mastectomy. With my fifteen year history of biopsies, scans, scares, and false alarms (on both sides) I just figured I would get it all taken care of at the same time.
I’ve been pretty teary today, dealing with varying feelings of grief. But I’m at peace with what I’ve decided. Steve has been wonderfully supportive and loving and strong throughout it all. (The surgery will be Friday, April 23.)
As if we didn’t have stress enough, we just found out that our landlord has found a buyer for the house we’re renting. If we can’t buy it by April 30th, this other person is going to. And we can’t buy this house unless we sell the house in Smithfield.
The thought of moving and having cancer surgery and recovery? Not anything I want to think about very long. It’s just all a bit too much.
Thanks for your prayers for us today; I felt comforted knowing we were being carried by the compassion and concern of our many friends who read this site.