Wednesday, May 5, 2010


I apologize for the lack of updates recently. I just can't seem to locate the emotional stamina it takes to get it all together.

I have so enjoyed and appreciated the comments and e-mails that have continued to come in, even while I take a brief hiatus from posting much of substance. And at some point, I hope to stumble across a big dose of enthusiasm, strength, and verve and get back to my usual schedule of posting.

Until then, thank you for continuing to stop by and thank you for leaving your thoughts and prayers scattered all around the corners of Smithellaneous. If I can't hang out here much right now, it's nice to know that you're here, at least. It's also nice to know that when I get back, there will be someone waiting for me.

Talk to you soon . . .

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Catherine said...

Becky, take your time. I'll be checking your blog regularly. You are doing well. You've been through a huge ordeal. The only reason you are not making a bigger deal of it is because of what you've had with Sarah. Cancer moms feel that ANYTHING is better than ones child having cancer, and are even grateful when it hits us, as we get this perverted mentality that it is instead of our child.

You will be back in shape in a bit. My healthy, strapping brother was laid up for months with surgery that removed far less than what you had removed. Please rest and know that there are many of us who have never met you who are praying for you, and feel close to you.

Sue G said...

This would only let me do this in two parts. So here is part one:

You realize, of course, that your backlog of stories is building up and by the time you come back to fill us in, there will be a plethora of words to spill, thoughts to convey, and stories to share. Just so you know.

We are a patient lot, aren't we? How did you get so lucky to have such wonderful readers/friends?

It could be that you have so generously shared your thoughts, feelings, family, gatherings, hopes, dreams, fears, accomplishments, hurdles, and recipes with us. That might have a little to do with why we keep hanging around. Just a little. :-)

The first thing I want to hear about (after an update on how you're feeling, of course) is the house situation. Maybe we were supposed to read between the lines, but I want to know for sure...did the fact that the selling of the Smithfield house coinciding with the last day to buy the house you're in mean that you are buying the house you're in and don't have to pack and move, etc.? That has me curiouser and curiouser.

I think it's pretty normal to pull inside and find comfort, deal with your concerns and feelings, try to define the new "me" you are just getting to know. I do that all the time (which is why it takes me months between updates to come back to the computer). I personally have never understood the generosity with which you share your moments with us every single day. It is time consuming and it is so cathartic. I'm not made like that.

But I do understand withdrawing to find God, to find that inner strength, that "face" that will now greet the world amidst all the changes going on...and all the realities that accompany these changes.

If I may, I would like to remind you of some things I hope you have not forgotten, some things about you that will never change, certainly not by a surgical knife or a specific diagnosis.

Sue G said...
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Ann Martin said...

Oh, Becky, rest and relax in His love. You can bounce back in time and we will be waiting for the stories. I like Sue want to know about the Smithfield house and now the Manteo house. I knew God would answer prayer in His time. You are so wonderful to read and it is like we are sitting on the porch, looking at the ocean, talking with you. I know your surgery has been an experience none of us wish for and yet you are sharing it with us so we can lift you up in prayer more than before. Take care of yourself and know that we'll not leave you and are checking on you daily. Love to all the Smiths (including Snowy).

MaryH said...

Ditto, Ditto, Ditto, Sue G. I wish I had the gift of words that you and Sue G. have - it is a marvelous thing to be able to express yourself so eloquently and freely - As Sue G. said (and I hope she doesn't mind me "borrowing" a word or two of hers) - we are a very patient bunch, crowded into an overflowing waiting room, filled with prayers for your comfort and strength and recovery. Take your time, we are most certainly here and will be here awaiting all your stories when you feel like sharing again. So, whether you write or not, I am sure many of us will be writing you - just so you know we are still here. Praying.

SuperSuz said...

Yes, what Sue said...

we'll be right here when you get back!

Sending love, hugs and prayers your way!

Karo said...

Don't rush it Ms. Becky, we'll all still be here. You couldn't get rid of us if you tried! ;)

Anonymous said...

I totally agree with Sue G . . . I only wish I had the way with words that she does (as well as you do, Becky). Just know that the thoughts and prayers are there, even if the words aren't :o) Great big hugs to my favorite Smith family!
Linda in Pittsburgh

Ericka said...

Please don't apologize to us. We all totally understand. Your priority is healing right now.


Anonymous said...

I'm sure everyone totally understands. Just know that there are so many people praying for you, and we'll be waiting patiently until you get back! :)

Gayle in AL

Bridgette said...

Don't you worry about not being able to post right now! You take care of YOU! We'll be here when you feel like coming back!:-)

LizW said...

Becky, just your signing in and saying "I am hanging in there" is plenty! Sue G. said it all! When you have the energy and the strength to start telling your stories, we will be waiting. In the meantime, do what you have to do to feel better. Remember, as my mother frequently reminds me, patience is a virtue!
Prayers always!

A said...

We will be here when you are rested and ready to write more. Rest, relax, and refuel in the Lord!

Beth said...

I've never posted on your blog before, but I've been lurking on your site and Sarah's since the early days of Sarah's treatment.

I'm so sorry for your recent surgery and am glad that you're now on the mend.

I always try to remember to take things one day at a time. Soon you'll find you can't remember the bad days anymore.

Do what you need to take care of yourself... don't worry about anything else.

Know I'll keep reading, no matter how long it is before you have anything to say!

Please take care!

tylersmama said...

We're still here!!! Ditto everything that Sue said. And sometimes you just need to take a break. We all get that. And when you do come back, I want to hear all about your house and how it sold!!! I was sooo excited to hear that news!! xoxoxox

Anonymous said...


Take all the time you need, we will all be here waiting for you. Please rest, relax, and heal as you truly need to. We can wait...

Cindy from Sonoma

Anonymous said...

WOW! Sue G really wrote a wonderful, truth filled entry! Please take time for "You" and allow yourself time, time to heal, both physically and mentally, time to process all that has happened, time to rest, time to cry, time with your family, time to do what Becky needs to do. There are no guidelines, there are no due dates, we (your readers) just want what is best for you. Of course we look forward to hearing from you, and are looking forward to the house story, but first we want you to take care of you.

May you find comfort in our Heavenly Father.

Praying for you,

Marysienka said...

Take it easy Becky! We'll be there waiting for you when you come back, no matter what!

Anonymous said...

I love the waiting to hear all the GOOD news about your old and new homes. I think the anticipation is just about as exciting as hearing the actual stories, which, by the way, I love to share with my bridge group on Wednesdays... so, maybe next week I'll have more to share. Just take good care of yourself, and when you feel like blogging again, we'll all be here to applaud!

I didn't tell you that I made the PPP Casserole (Pastors' Potluck Pineapple) for an Easter dinner at a friend's house. There wasn't any left for me to bring home. heck!

love and prayers
mrs pam

Anonymous said...

Keep resting and getting better!! We'll be here. Still praying for you.

Kris H

Lisa said...

Bless your sweet heart. Continuing to pray for your peace my friend.


Anonymous said...

I don't comment a lot, but I read what you write and am continuously inspired, humbled, and comforted by your words. I'm thinking of you and your entire family. There will be smile-filled, blissful days again! For now, I hope you take the time to care for yourself and let yourself feel those feelings. That's healing too.

Gail Puckett said...

Becky, short updates are great, just as long as we know you are doing okay. Take your time, you need to heal, both emotionally and physically, prayers coming your way, good news about the house

Anonymous said...

Hope that you are feeling better soon!

Kristi near KCMO

Michelle said...

Stumbled across this prayer that I find so fitting for you today, Becky:

Blessed Savior, we thank you that this operation is safely past, and now Becky rests in your abiding presence, relaxing every tension, releasing every care and anxiety, receiving more and more of your healing life into every part of her being. In moments of pain she turns to you for strength, in times of loneliness she feels your loving nearness. Grant that your life and love and joy may flow through her for the healing of others in your name. Amen.

Kim said...

Oh honey--you need to give yourself time. Your body has been through a major trauma-both physically and mentally. I think when a hospital sends a person home after 1 day when they have had something so invasive done it sends the message to the patient that this must not be that big of a deal and so we then set up expectations for our recovery that aren't realistic!
You will become strong again, but you must not over do things or rush things. We are all hear cheering you on and praying for you and rejoicing with you over the great pathology report you received! Not to mention the joy over your housing situation being resolved!! Yeah God!!!
I hope you are sleeping tight as I type this--it is almost midnight here on the west coast so almost 3 where you are.
*many hugs to you*

Anonymous said...

Well said, Sue G! Now I can be my usual "verbose" self: still praying, Becky! :)


LeeAnne said...

I agree with everyone else...just take care of yourself and get all the rest you need. We will be patiently waiting. You're worth it. You cant get rid of us. Hugs!

Anonymous said...

Becky, we (your faithful readers) will be patiently waiting and diligently checking your blog for the day when u are once again ready to bless us with your writing.

Heidi in ND

Chill said...

We are all in your corner. Not just we who are commenting but all who read these posts are pulling for you and are praying for your complete recovery and restoration.

Anonymous said...

Sleep = Healing.

Praying for your speedy recovery!

L in AK

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